this is sweety she is about 18yrs old she has lived though 3 bad kids and 2 grandbabies who are sweet as pie by sometimes they both love on sweety just a little to much. People always say oh to only have a cats live..well be careful you could end up with sweety's life....haha.

buzy day today, I think I keep making my day buzzy so I don't think of what is going on.. but then night comes  along and then it slows down I then I start thinking,,darn it. Night hits and I start to feel alone. wow. Lee no it's Justme.

my sister is now turning yellow, I wonder how long now, God will call her name and she will go home and be  happy for the first time in a long time...I hope to  see her soon.. my best friend  is my sister. I will miss her, and then that will be two friends I lost in the last few days..God must really want me to be alone, I know he has a plan for me I just have to follow.

Today I walked home why, so I could cry alone...

God is good, my sister is still here and I have family who has really stand beside me. My nephew has be great to me. My kids know me and know I need them all right now.. Family is great.

This weekend is one of the hardest so far and yet I know it's only going to get worst..My older sister is dieing  because of 3 brain tumors,,and why  that is what I have been asking myself all weekend. Why her, why can't it be someone that is mean, why do I do this to myself, because there are no answers. Cancer has no why's, no because, no fair, no reason, and not fast, first it makes everyone suffer, then it makes you wait......sounds like love.

today it was very nice weather. I'm very like to have such wonderful friends and family. once in awhile when my life get's crazy I have to stop and just look around and remember who I am and where I have been and enjoy where I am right now.....blogger's what do you think of and what do you see around you when you STOP........and just be....quite.....  : )